Well have you ever thought what is your pesonality like? I have found one personality test ,the left is my personality , enthusiatic,giving,cautious and loyal....
hmmmm just an example for your thinking cap, how true>?Well, I have start analyzing on star signs and horoscope when I was around 13, reason being is because I want to know about me. Am I fun? Or warmth? Funny? Lovable?
Yeah, very logical and spiritual fact that I found. Yeah yeah strong, friendly ,warm, funny, and yada yada....I always thought that I am friendly and warm and talkative.....well some people described me as friendly , always smiling and happy....but sometimes I think I am not all that!
There is no jolliest in my tone,and I am so distant and shy and I cant perform!
I remember when I was small,the school has a play, and I was supposed to be someone, that laugh and evil in the play, but I couldn't performed...I lost my spark...my confidence....
I am trying to figure out why sometimes I can stand out from the crowd but sometimes I just suck?
I like being host on TV ,you know like 8TV and stuff like that, but in order for you to be a HOST, you have to be perky,cheerful and bubbly...I think, yeah I am not then....I could be that but not all time...I could be moody and emotional Gothic...and sick ....
Complicated huh? I think is because of the Libra and Cancer rising that makes me like that....well if your birth sign and rising isn't compatible, then you would have a difficult time dealing with yourself......If not I can be what I want, maybe movie star, singer, tv Host, anything in media or show business although its kinda dirty....I mean its a mean world to be in show business.....I wouldn't tolerate it I think...
Well, guess thats why, you know, I am like that. Gosh...cancer is hyper sensitive and home loving and what else..protective of loves one and obsession ....while Libra is indecisive ,fun loving, flirting,unpredictable, loves party, funny and loves people and gossip....daaa
Yeah i have those....it makes me so different because I may look like a cancer for the first impression, and when they know me they know I am not that quiet, stuck up like a cancer, because once know me they think Libra personality shines ....
Thats terrible fate , if I have complimentary sun sign and rising, I could have easier time with myself...easier to succeed ...and I am not kidding.....Example, my sis Josey is a good example, she is successful and earn triples my salary and she have no problem dealing with herself, because her sun sign Aquarius and rising sign Sagittarius, is complimentary with each other, which makes her have a easier time with her self and all other things....
So ....I guessed now from knowing that my sometimes peculiar personality which is harmless, I have to find a job that maybe less of a challenge as I might not tolerate the heat and tension and stress because I am cancer on the outer side which be a little intense for all political and drama environment.....
I guess I have a serious problem need fixing now, my weight issues, sad huh people focus on career and I am still on personal development?
Well, without confidence ? means nothing right? So thats what I am doing....gaining back my confidence......
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