This year would be the final year for me to get back in Shape as I have been so undisciplined with myself for indulging in a symptom called emotional eating.
During raya, I managed to lose 10kg, but after that, I quickly gained back with extra coming through. Yesterday, I just weight myself at the my friend place, and I weighed 92kg/204 lbs.
Oh my gosh! What a blow off! Well, Being at this state, I have only myself to be blame,because I dont exercise nor watch out what I eat...I have been gulping everything 24/7 ...
Prehaps, not getting a job, lifeless to say that I have a really dull life...right now! To understand I am in this state is probably, I am NOT HAPPY, and REALLY SAD. If I am fat , you will know something is wrong with me, although I looked happy but in reality I am not!
I will indulged myself to make myself feel safe and sound with any kind of food, even lately my gastrick emerged again ,after the interview I went and didnt ate any food in the morning...
Well, I was happily once , when I was really slim (58kg), well not my ideal weight but its better than now... (92kg). I think I am a loser...
Maybe because right now, I didnt have any TLC ,its very important to be loved by someone, and maybe financial problems that I am facing that lead me to this hell....
I cant think of other than to find a job, and not stayed at home,people will say I didnt contribute to the household and yapping away...So, wtf
Ok, at last I have gotten a job, not a exclusive job though just some normal stuff. And well, to a point that I sighed relieved! I ve got a job! Now just hope they will place me near PJ area, as it would be easy for me to go to the gym in the morning before work starts...
I am gonna lose that ....fats in no time....I am thinking of losing at least 10-16kgs in Feb,which leads me to around 82-76kg, and March would be 12kgs , till 64kg , then at April it would be voila! another 10kg ,so from 64kg to my ideal weight which is 54kg.
So starting from today...no more reason, I will try to workout slowly ....before works starts on Feb9, and hope to lose at least another 8kgs from tommorow 23/1 till 8/2 which would be 17days I pressumed.
Hence, no more monkey business for me, and no matter what I will have to start exercise and watch out what to eat tmrw.So by the time , work starts I would be around 84kg which is better than now!
Then it would be easier for me to lose it before April or by April. And maintaining it all the time!
So I have already planned that Feb, I will lose 10kgs. March I will lose 12kgs and April I will lose 8kgs....so it leads me to my ideal weight 54kgs...
Hehehehe, So I will do it no matter what happend and maybe stay on a little longer to achieved the new me...thats means try not to give up on works although stressful and till I am slimmed and achieved my self confidence back ...
Give me the determination and peserverance to go through my diet for year 2009 with much success and I am maintaining my ideal weight then.....
Life sucks ! If I dont have a killer body to die for.....I wish to wear so many clothes that seems so impossible for me to wear now.....yesss and my this years resolutions is I pledge to myself not to buy anymore clothes or anything till I hv my own big closet and till I got another bigger salary job....hehehehehe
All people must think big to be big!
But not body size big, its ambition and dreams must be .....Big!
My dream Body....britney spears
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